I'm just not very exciting

I read Wendi's blog daily. Realistically, I don't know Wendi but really feel like I do. She is one of the two people who's blogs are updated daily and that I feel like I can't miss. For the life of me I can't even think of anything of worth to update on a weekly basis. I want to be cool like Wendi, turns out I am not. Turns out my life is boring. It is not that I do not have time to blog, because I have enough time, I just have nothing to say. As well as blogging daily, these two also post pictures of their life several times a week. I want to do that as well, but I never take pictures. I want to take pictures but it just doesn't happen. Who thinks about it. I thought having a kid would change that, instead whenever I feel guilty that she will have no pictures of her childhood or I see someone else's photos which motivates me I try to take one. Sad.

For an update on our boring life...
I am a big fan of scheduling, this is true in general. I am very routine oriented, I like knowing what I need or want to get done for the day. Happily, Eden and I are getting into a routine. Our crazy lives of people visiting at all times of the day, everyday has calmed down and for the most part it is just the two of us until the evening. We now of feeding and such on a schedule as well which so helps my sanity. For all of you feeding on demand people out there, more power to you but I think I would have a break down if I did that. Don't worry she is not starving and is actually much happier now that we are in the swing of things, probably because I actually have a clue what she wants.

Daily, I say I hate breastfeeding at least 10 times. To Carlos, Mandy, the dog or even just to myself. I think I have also threatened to quit at least half that many times. I should put the disclaimer that I am having no issues breast feeding at this point I just hate it. Really, I hate everything about it. I am still doing it because I know it is good for her, and realistically formula is expensive so why started buying it at this point. At this point I keep telling myself to just make it until she is a month old. Once I get to that point, I will probably tell myself to make it to two months.

All of this being said, she does get a bottle probably twice a day (I am pumping, just to give myself this bit of sanity.) I love that Carlos feeds her once at night, he doesn't have to, he just wants to help me and let me sleep a little more. Have I mentioned lately how much I love that man?

I also am not into breastfeeding when other people are around. Yes, I could throw a blanket over me but it is then awkward and annoying and I just don't want to.

I know there are people out there that genuinely enjoy breastfeeding and feel very bonded with their baby during this time, to them I say you have my respect. I am just never going to be that person.

A quick change from my ranting, I am so ready for spring! I need to get out of the house. I want to go for walks. Norman wants to go for walks. I think warmer weather will bring a serious excitement to our home.